SAMANTHA IN WONDERLAND

Bloody dripping from their lips... Teeth sinking into heart

2009-03-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

If the elephants have past lives
yet all destined to always remember
It's no wonder how they scream
Like you and I they must have some temper

And I am dreaming of them on the planes
Dirtying up their beds
Watching for some sign of rain to cool their hot heads

And how dare that you send me that card
when I am doing all that I can do
You are forcing me to remember
when all

I want is to just forget you

If the tiger shall protect her young
then tell me how did you slip by

All my instincts have failed me for once
I must have somehow slept the whole night

And I am dreaming of them with their kill

Tearing it all apart

Blood dripping from their lips
and teeth sinking into heart

And how dare that you say you'll call

When you know

I need some peace of mind

If you have to take sides with the animals

Won't you do it with one who is kind

And if the hawks in the trees need the dead
If you're living you don't stand a chance
For a time though you share the same bed
There are only two ends to this dance

You can flee with your wounds just in time
or lie there as he feeds

Watching yourself ripped to shreds
and laughing as you bleed

So for those of you falling in love

keep it kind

Keep it good

Keep it right

Throw yourself in the midst of danger
but keep one eye open at night

Either, or

2008-10-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

http://samanthainwonderland.wordpress.com

Either, or... whenever i feel like it.

xoxo

in desperate need of a miracle

2008-10-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

Lucky me. I manage survive the first week of the O level exam. I'm a survivor!! I won't fail, but I don't think I'll do well. I screwed English up. Totally cried after English paper 1... I know... lousy... totally. "Greed". What the heck, such an easy and nice word to write on. BUT NOooooOoOOooO... it was my WORST ESSAY EVER WRITTEN IN MY ENTIRE SECONDARY EDUCATION. And Geography. And well, E math paper 1. I MAKE THE STUPIDEST MISTAKES.

I'm praying hard for a miracle, cause I know I can't do this alone.

God, help me, please.

OMG, IT'S TOMORROW!!!

2008-10-19T02:06:00.000-07:00

God, I can't do this alone. Help me, please.

Chemistry notes - checked
Panadol(s) - checked
Strepsils - checked
Cough Med - checked

I am more or less ready for the paper tomorrow.

Gosh, can you believe it? It's tomorrow. The O Level exam (kinda) starts tomorrow! ... And I'm sick... I am ill. Sore-throat. Slight fever. This is so not cool.

On the brighter side, I bought Copeland's new one. ^^ And Love Psychedelico's "This is Love Psychedelico"... after like.. 2 years. I don't know why too. I am a happy girl.

Thanks everyone who have been wishing me luck and keeping me in prayer. Thank you. I'll be needing a lot of those.

Soon

2008-10-12T07:43:00.000-07:00

I really didn't expect it to be so soon.

Bloody hot

2008-10-11T09:38:00.000-07:00

I HAVE HEAT RASH AND I DON'T LIKE IT.

ONE WEEK LEFT.

5 WEEKS TO LIBERATION.

GO ME!!

Eat

2008-10-10T08:55:00.000-07:00

50 kg by December.

... i feel like crying.

TEN

2008-10-10T08:30:00.000-07:00

I WILL OWN YOU IN CHEM. A1 FOR CHEMISTRY. JE, KISS MY ASS.

Tomorrow:
1) Math tuition
2) Study P.O.A theory + complete all papers
3) Start on S.S

Target (yes, the more realistic one):
English - b3
Chinese - b4
Biology - a2
Chemistry - a1
POA - a1
E. math - b3
Geog+SS - a1

L1r5 - 11
L1r4 - 9

I need prayer.

YOU CAN BEND

2008-10-07T06:11:00.000-07:00

Hi. This will be my last week in Ngee Ann Secondary School. It's sad... in a way.

... So anyway, I skipped school today and went to the library to do some hardcore studying. Then I walked from the library to Planet Fitness gym in Parkway to meet Mom. We were going to do Hot Yoga. And... Man, they have classes there called 'Bhangrarobics'. Yes, its actually aerobic classes where they play the latest Bollywood dance/trance music and dance along. It was so hilarious. I was laughing my ass off. Then I laughed even harder when I saw Mom inside the dance studio dancing Bhangrarobics with a few other middle aged ladies. I was trying so hard to keep my humour... I didn't want to offend the Indian instructor. No no, I'm not racist. You should have seen. It was hilarious.

Okay, so anyway... Yoga. Yes, I suck at it. I couldn't really understand the instructor because she had an accent. And there was this really weird position we were instructed to do... Which I just couldn't and she went, "YOU CAN BEND! YOU! CAN! BEND! JUST A BIT MORE!" I lost my balance immediately. Yeah, that's how much I suck. Oh well.

I know, I know. I have boring posts... 12 days left. Gotta bounce... More sneaking in tomorrow... and I cannot wait! Till then...

SIXTEEN

2008-10-03T19:59:00.000-07:00

Sixteen days left and I am so obsessed with Alice... Can't stop watching Disney.

Need to study... So long, goodbye!

EIGHTEEN

2008-10-01T08:22:00.000-07:00

2R1 class chalet, track chalet, racial harmony day, sherry's birthday, halloween... just really old and really random pictures. Time to sleep, Good night.

Twenty

2008-09-30T01:56:00.000-07:00

20 days left... !!! :O

I am currently taking a break from all that mugging.

I like this font. It makes me calm.

Anyways, I've made a post-exam to-do list and I cannot wait!!!

^_^

Happy birthday, Mom.

2008-09-17T04:46:00.000-07:00

Love exists.. and it hurts.

2008-09-12T20:42:00.000-07:00

I am done with the prelims. Approximately 37 more days to the start of my O level exam, 69 days to liberation and 2 more days till I start studying again. Yes, I am counting down the days. I'll be getting back my prelim results on Monday and I don't have a very good feeling about it. Ha ha.

Migraine for the past few days. Had to depend on Panadols. Which sucked. Sherm thinks it's crazy. Ha ha. Someday I'll have to switch to Panadol Extra. No, actually, I already am on Extra... Dang.

So, the the week has been rather... sad. I've been crying a lot this week. I wish there was another word for sad. You know, not devastated... not gloomy, not blue, not down, not cheerless, not downhearted, not dull, not disprited, not unhappy... just sad. I wish there was another word I could use to replace 'Sad'. With the exact same degree of... sadness. 'Sad' is getting a bit overrated these days.

Right now, at this very second, I am chatting with someone I really hate online. Yes, I really hate the person. So much. And I don't know why. That person just really pisses me off. BUT, I am trying to like the person. Which is why I am talking to the person. I'M REALLY TRYING HERE. And it turns out that the person wasn't as bad as I thought. The person made me listen to Blue Horizon...some hardcore screamo band, which I have never ever heard of. Which I really have no interest in. Cause, I don't like music like that. Ok, now I'm just blabbering.

Botanic Gardens later. Need to chill and relax. Gtg pack sandwiches now. Have fun.

Crash

2008-09-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

For my own good, I will try (the word is TRY) my best to crash at ten everyday.

I deleted all my old posts. I don't want any memory of you.

2008-08-31T06:28:00.000-07:00

14 October. Copeland's new one! Gotta go pre-order! I'm soooo excited!

I have been feeling rather mellow-y for the whole of today. My spidey senses are telling me that my period is coming soon. A couple of days, maybe. Dang, I really wanna swim. Get a tan. Whatever. Need to go for a jog tomorrow morning or something. I'm so unfit.

Anyways, I wasted the whole of today away. I went to bed again after I had my breakfast. When I woke up, it was time for dinner at gramps. Didn't get shit done today. Frustrating. However, I did managed to come up with a couple of artwork which I intend to send it to Love Exists. The best ideas come whenever I feel mellow. And yes, I am still saving up for a camera. My dad just refuse to get me one during the COMEX fair. Yeah, I just don't understand why. "After the O's." Yeah, sure.

There won't be any school for the next week, but I'll be muggin my ass off for the prelims. Sigh. This is so depressing.

I miss Drama. I guess I won't be going to K.L. This is so depressing. I miss everyone. I miss Christmas. ~~I miss you.~~